Transitions, decisions, the capability for love |
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The missing comes in waves, and the disappointment. The confusion, well, it's always been there.
A sinking feeling that I've just let something beautiful slip through my hands.
Wallowing somewhat, my music library and tastes make it all too easy. Eventually, catharsis, perhaps?
Breaking the silence |
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I've never been comfortable breaking the silence, especially at a public or semi-public venue with more than a couple of people around. It feels like too much of an imposition of myself on a space or audience that couldn't care less.
That being said, is sa.yona.la really this quiet, or is most of the activity just kept private?
Software Design |
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In an attempt at more productive procrastination, I've been reading Code Complete. It seems only fitting, since the next stage of our work would seem to be redesigning and re-implementing quite a chunk of our current Google Docs syncing code, which I played a major part in messing up.
Sure, it works (most of the time anyway) but it's gotten too unwieldy and kludgy and unmanageable, and is difficult to test.
I should begin to collect any factors or caveats that would affect our redesign.
Think things through #1 |
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TIL |
Today I learned to think things through. More precisely, the necessity of learning to think things through was once again driven home.
An unconsidered edge case caused a bug -- the number of children a folder can have on Google Docs isn't limited, but in our server DB the field storing this (as a JSON list, which is another design crime I feel I'm gonna pay for), there was a character limit of 65,535.
Bandage, short-term solution? Change the field type from TEXT to LONGTEXT, for a 4-billion character limit, much less likely to be reached in common cases. (Arguably even the previous limit would be reached only rarely, but is possible for a few thousand files in a folder, so it wouldn't have been THAT uncommon...) Then fix the corrupted (truncated) data, thankfully only a couple of test folder rows.
The fixed mindset; openness |
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Why does going through Carol Dweck's Mindset again feel just as much like an epiphany as the first time? (Apparently, it didn't stick, and I had just reverted back to my stubborn fixed-mindset ways.)
Focus on growth. Recognize and learn from your failures -- don't let them discourage and define you.
Stop moping. Think instead, "What am I going to do about it?"
Maybe then you won't feel like you have to keep hiding different bits of yourself from different people.
Let's try this again, shall we? |
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I haven't been writing enough. It's time to begin producing again.